in response to HEARTbrokenPOOHbear... My dear Lady, God has given you a second chance at life. You have been chosen to help heal other peoples hearts. You have been thru hell and back. I can't imagine how it is to be stricken with an illness that leaves you fully aware of the world around you ,but unable to fully participate in it. You will get better but only if you approach your healing from a god directed life. 'god will introduce you to people who need your help. By you helping them you will be helping yourself. You will be on the outside looking in. But you have to be open for that small chance to put yourself fully in their shoes and you will be able to see 'both sides of the problem.You are trapped in a situation that only you can escape from. Noone fully understands what you go thru to do simple things in life. You are constantly reminded of your short=comings by other people accidently. The way they treat you as if you are still injured. They refuse to look at you as a fully healed individual. therefore you have to work tripley harder. Every thing that you do you have to redo it again. Even when you think its OK;Look for what isnt OK.You have been injured and you have recovered but the scar that you have is limiting your functionality. You have to first realize that you have a scar that will never go away. But you can work around it. Just realize you have to work at your strengths. You must allow for your weaknesses to be pointed out to you by someone who doesn't lie to you and really wants to help you see the truth about yourself. The people that you think will be honest won't be, you have to trust a perfect stranger. Some one who has nothing to gain but the practice of just being honest is healing for man. Well its nice to meet you . I have to get ready for church. Have a blessed day and night.